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its been really long time since i last wrote on my blog..well im just wondering im in what kind of relationship?sometimes i feel that im not in a relationship...last time he use to contact me and of cos i got contact him as well sometimes, but he will contact me more...but this time he contact me lesser and i've been looking for him everyday bcos i miss him..im wondering why he chooses me as a gf? is it bcos of satisfaction?im really confuse myself...sometimes he treat me nice and sometimes he treat me ok...if he doesnt like me in the first place, he should not be together with me.. i really hate this kind of relationship and its something like my ex, but much better than him of cos (way much better than him) is it my fault? im the person that does not like to be sad and being emo...but why is this happening to me again????i really feel like giving up, but i cant bcos i love him and sometimes i pray hard to GOD that he will treat me better..there is one night i dream about him that he was flurting with other girls and i was jealous (wierd dream) its just out of a sudden i dreamt about that..am i such a useless and bad gf in reality??well i think i am...haiz im not sure but i think its my fault and i will try to improve and i really hope that he will treat me better. i think this might sound quite funny to you guys bcos of such a small matter and im feeling sad about it ahahahha but i just write it out bcos im kinda depressed and confused at the moment..

Listen - Beyonce

Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete

Listen
To the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't listen

Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own ... Read Morehome
And I've tried and tried to say what's on my mind
You should have known

- Oh

Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse......
Into your own all 'cause you won't listen

給我一首歌的時間

雨停下的天空
灰的更加老舊
你說你不懂為何在這時牽手
我晒干了承諾
灰的更加懵懂
就算做事做錯也隻是怕錯過

在一起走
分開了走
是不是說沒有做完的夢最痛
你若退后
我能承受
在最后的出口
在愛過哪兒才有

能不能給我一首歌的時間
緊緊的把那擁抱變成永遠
在我的懷裡
不用太多失眠
如果你想忘記我也能適應

能不能給我一首歌的時間
把故事聽到最后才說再見
你送我的眼淚
讓他留在雨天
如果你懷疑一心的依然勇氣當作鄙夷

被淋濕的天空
灰的更加老舊
你說你不懂我為何在這時牽手
我晒干了承諾
灰的狠沖動
就算做事做錯也隻是怕錯過

在一起走
分開了走
是不是說沒有做完的夢最痛
你若退后
我能承受
在最后的出口
在愛過哪兒才有

能不能給我一首歌的時間
緊緊的把那擁抱變成永遠
在我的懷裡
不用太多失眠
如果你想忘記我也能適應

能不能給我一首歌的時間
把歌詞聽到最后再說再見
你送我的眼淚
讓他留在雨天
如果你懷疑一心的依然勇氣當作鄙夷
你說我不該不該不該在這時候說了我愛你
要怎麼証明我沒有說謊的力氣
請告訴我
而暫停算不算放棄
我隻有那一天的回憶

能不能給我一首歌的時間
緊緊的把那擁抱變成永遠
在我的懷裡
不用太多失眠
如果你想忘記我也能適應

能不能給我一首歌的時間
哦.把歌詞聽到最后再說再見
你送我的眼淚
讓他留在雨天
哦.如果你懷疑一心的依然勇氣當作鄙夷

Rap部分:
你說過我不該不該
在這時說愛你
要怎麼証明我沒有力氣
可是暫停卻算不算放棄

我說我不該不該
不該在這時才說愛你
要怎麼証明我沒有力氣
我隻有一天回憶

説好的幸福呢

妳的回話凌亂著　在這個時刻
我想起噴泉旁的白鴿　甜蜜散落了
情緒莫名的拉扯　我還愛妳呢
而妳斷斷續續唱著歌　假裝沒事了
時間過了　走了　愛情面臨選擇
妳冷了　倦了　我哭了
離開時的不快樂　妳用卡片手寫著
有些愛只給到這真的痛了
怎麼了　妳累了　說好的　幸福呢
我懂了　不說了　愛淡了　夢遠了
開心與不開心　一一細數著　妳再不捨
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻　我都還記得
妳不等了　說好的　幸福呢
我錯了　淚乾了　放手了　後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著　要怎麼停呢