Im Glad!!!

well im really glad that i broke up with him because that he is going after a girl behind my back (btw i suspect it ald) worse thing is she is my sis friend and he can be so freaking happy about the break up errggggg and im really not going to be upset about it and oh btw he is not worth it to be upset about anymore... thanks guys for the advice and being a listener when i needed them =) i really do appreciate it a lot... thinking back it, i feel that im really such a fool..anywayzzz its over!!!yay freedom ahahhaahah

Wonder Girls - Saying i Love You

Non nul naege malhaettji wae saranghandan malhaji anhnyago
Nal saranghagin hanyago
Gunde nan malya jomdo dalkomhage joldae ijulsu obge
Yonghwasoge yonin dulchorom gobaek haryogo
Gidaryosso hwinnunul naeeje
Malhalge nol wihae akkyo duwottdon gumal
Saranghae haessalboda nunboshin noye misorul nal anajudon
Noye dusonul saranghae saranghae
Yaksokhae na joldae nol ttona jianhulge
Irohke nul neeyope sosona malhalge
Mwol guri mangsorinyago guge guri oryobnyago
Nae mamul dutgo shipdago
Gunde nan malya jomdo tukbyolhage suchyo jinagaji anhke
Gu onu nalboda arumdabge giokdwidorok
Gidaryosso hwinnunul na ije
Malhalge nol wihae akkyodowottdon gumal
Saranghae haesalboda nun bushin noye misorul nal anajudon
Noye du sunul saranghae saranghae
Yaksokhae na joltae nol ttona jianhulge
Irohke nul neeyope sosona malhalge
Han sungando nowa ttorojigo shipji anha
Negeangyo shigani momchugirul baraeNa irohke nol sarangae~~
Sarangaehae haessalboda nun bushin noye misorul nal anajudon noyeDusonul saranghae saranghaeYaksokhae najoldae nal ttona jianhulge
Irohke nul neeyope sosona malhalge
Nol saranghae nol saranghae
Saranghae saranghae
Nol saranghae

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well i started blogging again after so long!! hahahahha well i ask him a question that whether he treat me as a substitute in the first place and whether does he likes me in the first place? and he tell me the answer is no and he told me that at first he doesnt really like me and wanted to break up with me before and then there was once when he went clubbing to celebrate anas farewell (i think) without me and he said that he was worrying about me and stuff...i myslef while listening to him saying those words feel like its so fake...i also ask him a question regarding last time he used to like jess but jess rejected him and moreover there is this girl that likes him and since that girl likes him so he just go for it...and his answer is like he doesnt treat me as a substitute and he knows that jess doesnt like him ald in the first place and not because of that he chooses me.. and he also say that in the first place that he doesnt like me until when he went clubbing during anas farewell he left me behind and he say that he regreted didnt bring me along and stuff haiz...when i heard that i find that its so fake and besides that he doesnt even contact his gf when she is with her friends till so late and sometimes when she is with a guy (that guys is my close friend)..and my friends can even ask me 'ur bf haven called u yet?' then i would answer dont know he doesnt even call and thats not the first time ald so many times..by the way his answer is like thats his character and he is not the type of person that calls ppl to ask where are they and he put full trust in me no matter which friend i hang out with...this shows that he doesnt even care about his gf at all haiz... i have nothing to say ald...by the way i broke up with him the next day bcos both of us like dont like each other and he say that what makes me think so...he didnt even say anything to not wanting me to break up...im not sure whether im doing the right thing..what am i to him?why are all the guys which are together with me like that???

Holidays

hey im back blogging again =) well im really happy that i finally got the job at utopia!! i applied the second time then only i manage to get the job yay!! but im still waiting for the manager to call me for training..well this is one of the good news and the other thing is recently i spend most of my time with my bf although he is working from 9 till 5 but im still happy can see him every single day hehehehe but sometimes he is not always by my side and he always will contact his guy friends first..sometimes im wondering is he gay?well sometimes i wanted to call him and ask him what time is he coming back, but then saw his phone in the room haiz... dont know why recently he did not bring his phone and im in the room worrying and waiting for him for so long to come back...im wondering am i important to him?but one thing i know that he treat me as his gf bcos there is one day where he saw me and my friend (guy) in my room sleeping and the environment is dark so he was so pissed at me for 2 days.. ok guys i can seriously tell u that there is really nothing happen between my friend and me and so i asked my bf why is he so quiet bcos he was really very quiet ever since he saw it, but he doesnt want to tell me..im really very scared during that time bcos he was really very quiet and thats the first time seeing him like that..then the next day he talk to me about that incident and i told him to trust me that im not this kind of person and so he trust me.. although the room is dark bcos my friend likes to sleep in a dark room that i also explain to him...and so at least i know that he is angry if he thought i did something bad behind his back..bcos all the while i thought that he is not "Gan Cheong"about me and bother what i do, but now i know..and oh results is coming out soon its really very freaky thing to check and i hope that everyone did well for their exams hwaiting!

Random

its been really long time since i last wrote on my blog..well im just wondering im in what kind of relationship?sometimes i feel that im not in a relationship...last time he use to contact me and of cos i got contact him as well sometimes, but he will contact me more...but this time he contact me lesser and i've been looking for him everyday bcos i miss him..im wondering why he chooses me as a gf? is it bcos of satisfaction?im really confuse myself...sometimes he treat me nice and sometimes he treat me ok...if he doesnt like me in the first place, he should not be together with me.. i really hate this kind of relationship and its something like my ex, but much better than him of cos (way much better than him) is it my fault? im the person that does not like to be sad and being emo...but why is this happening to me again????i really feel like giving up, but i cant bcos i love him and sometimes i pray hard to GOD that he will treat me better..there is one night i dream about him that he was flurting with other girls and i was jealous (wierd dream) its just out of a sudden i dreamt about that..am i such a useless and bad gf in reality??well i think i am...haiz im not sure but i think its my fault and i will try to improve and i really hope that he will treat me better. i think this might sound quite funny to you guys bcos of such a small matter and im feeling sad about it ahahahha but i just write it out bcos im kinda depressed and confused at the moment..

Listen - Beyonce

Listen
To the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete

Listen
To the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't listen

Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own ... Read Morehome
And I've tried and tried to say what's on my mind
You should have known

- Oh

Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse......
Into your own all 'cause you won't listen

給我一首歌的時間

雨停下的天空
灰的更加老舊
你說你不懂為何在這時牽手
我晒干了承諾
灰的更加懵懂
就算做事做錯也隻是怕錯過

在一起走
分開了走
是不是說沒有做完的夢最痛
你若退后
我能承受
在最后的出口
在愛過哪兒才有

能不能給我一首歌的時間
緊緊的把那擁抱變成永遠
在我的懷裡
不用太多失眠
如果你想忘記我也能適應

能不能給我一首歌的時間
把故事聽到最后才說再見
你送我的眼淚
讓他留在雨天
如果你懷疑一心的依然勇氣當作鄙夷

被淋濕的天空
灰的更加老舊
你說你不懂我為何在這時牽手
我晒干了承諾
灰的狠沖動
就算做事做錯也隻是怕錯過

在一起走
分開了走
是不是說沒有做完的夢最痛
你若退后
我能承受
在最后的出口
在愛過哪兒才有

能不能給我一首歌的時間
緊緊的把那擁抱變成永遠
在我的懷裡
不用太多失眠
如果你想忘記我也能適應

能不能給我一首歌的時間
把歌詞聽到最后再說再見
你送我的眼淚
讓他留在雨天
如果你懷疑一心的依然勇氣當作鄙夷
你說我不該不該不該在這時候說了我愛你
要怎麼証明我沒有說謊的力氣
請告訴我
而暫停算不算放棄
我隻有那一天的回憶

能不能給我一首歌的時間
緊緊的把那擁抱變成永遠
在我的懷裡
不用太多失眠
如果你想忘記我也能適應

能不能給我一首歌的時間
哦.把歌詞聽到最后再說再見
你送我的眼淚
讓他留在雨天
哦.如果你懷疑一心的依然勇氣當作鄙夷

Rap部分:
你說過我不該不該
在這時說愛你
要怎麼証明我沒有力氣
可是暫停卻算不算放棄

我說我不該不該
不該在這時才說愛你
要怎麼証明我沒有力氣
我隻有一天回憶

説好的幸福呢

妳的回話凌亂著　在這個時刻
我想起噴泉旁的白鴿　甜蜜散落了
情緒莫名的拉扯　我還愛妳呢
而妳斷斷續續唱著歌　假裝沒事了
時間過了　走了　愛情面臨選擇
妳冷了　倦了　我哭了
離開時的不快樂　妳用卡片手寫著
有些愛只給到這真的痛了
怎麼了　妳累了　說好的　幸福呢
我懂了　不說了　愛淡了　夢遠了
開心與不開心　一一細數著　妳再不捨
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻　我都還記得
妳不等了　說好的　幸福呢
我錯了　淚乾了　放手了　後悔了
只是回憶的音樂盒還旋轉著　要怎麼停呢